Sobriety is awesome

It is official! I am celebrating 3 years without a single drop of alcohol.

That's over 1, 577, 330 minutes, over 94, 640,2022 seconds, 1096 days, over 26,288 Hours. The rest follows. In this blog I will briefly tell you how my drinking journey began right up until the end. So buckle up. you're in for the ride.

I've come a long way, baby!

I started drinking at the age of 21. At the time it wasn’t a problem. It was a time of officially growing up, yet having a good time with friends, and having a few drinks with family on special occasions. I wasn’t even a big drinker when I started. The first time I drank I was so far gone that I was getting a piggy pack by a friend to the nearest taxi from someone else’s 21st birthday party, and barfing it up in the front seat that lead to a clean up by the driver on the way home. This happen on my 21st birthday. Despite the messy part I actually had a decent time. It was the first time I actually enjoyed alcohol. I had 5 UDL cans and one Gouger. If you don’t know what those are you might wanna look those up. It was good while it lasted.

The years went on. It was starting to become a problem. I had dealt with emotional and physical abuse by my father, then dealt with one very emotionally abusive relationship with a Narcissistic partner back in 2008. Then in late 2016 My grandmother died. I had often been to the hospital due to a psychotic break fueled by alcohol. Then by 2022 I was enjoying the taste of wine way too much. I was drinking about 8 bottles of wine a week (possibly more. I lost count), and working a part time job that exacerbated my disabilities. My father still causing me stress with other problems even the smallest ones – That was a trigger also.

I had also broken ties with many friends. Some of whom I had known for years I even hurt my best friend for no apparent reason, and stopped talking to him for a while. It was quite and iscolating time in my life.

I knew I had to do something about it. I couldn’t stop drinking by myself. Alcohol had such a hold on me that it almost became a part of me. I didn’t want to become a different terrible person everytime I was under the influence, and I certainly didn’t want to remain vulnerable.

I tried to do the 12 step program with AA. But I couldn’t grasp the religious side of it. I have mix views of the existence of God, and felt like I was forcing myself into something I wasn’t completely believing in. I know it sounds odd. But my beliefs can be controversial. I did manage to get my one month chip afterall.

I finally got a move on with This Naked Mind. I turned to the community, and started writing blogs. Ontop of this I was also reading Annie Grace’s Control alcohol along with the 30 day alcohol experiment. All hands on deck!!

I managed to go 33 days without a drop of alcohol. Then I relapsed to see how I felt. I did my normal bottle and a half of wine. I took my first glass, and realized I didn’t like the taste of alcohol anymore, yet I couldn’t let whatever was left over go to waste! By the next morning I poured down half a bottle of wine, and didn’t look back.

I promised my self that I would not be an alcoholic at 40 years old. Look at me now! This year I’ll be 41, and still sober to this day. I am now running a second business called Hue and Coil, which sells mainly custom quilling pieces on Etsy, and I am still trying my best to stay productive with my music also. I am so grateful to be here. It has been a journey worth while travelling.

I believe that if anyone has an addiction there is always a strong potential that they can do something about it. Since I stopped drinking I have made many achievements even if they are small. Small and mighty. I also made some big ones and manifested exactly what I wanted. I released an album. I made two music videos. I started my first music business Echo Pulse. It got so much easier to be productive, and find these things enjoyable. You got to really WANT to get sober to get more out of your life, and that is a really powerful thing.