Is Fame Worth Chasing? Balancing Ambition and Fulfillment in the Pursuit of a Meaningful Life.

When you are young sometimes you don't know what to do for the rest of your life.

When I was a teenager I wanted to be a famous musician. But now I question whether was a good idea or just another pipe dream I'd know I'd never accomplish.

You'd think at my ripe old age of 40 I would of done more things, like travel the world, work a job that kept me off of government payments, got married, had children, had a stable income, did some other crazy stuff. But I had never done a lot of those things. The only place I ever travelled to was South America when I was with an Ex partner I shall not name. I never had the money to do most of the things I wanted to do. Instead I am stuck here, spending most of my time inside, trying to find my own balance throughout my days.

Relatable? I bet it is. I don't think life was very stable. You got governments who are greedy, and don't keep their promises most of the time. Social media has made people daring enough to go to great lengths to put you down. Yet you see glimmers of kindness and hope inbetween everything that involves this world.

Fame??? Do I still want it? Whilst it's great to get the exposure, and have more people enjoy your music do I really want to be followed by paparazzi, and fall victim to false information about me? Do I really want to be judged for other things other than my music also? Is it worthy sacrificing my sanity to satisfy everyone else through change?

Yet I want more out of life. I am not just talking about glitz and glamour. If I had my way I'd grab my studio equipment and my cat, travel to a log cabin near the beach, and write music. No internet. Very little use of my phone. Just be in a different place. No distractions. I'd do it often throughout the year. Maybe write an album in a different country. Maybe even start doing tours around my country.

But you need money to make money. Not just spend it to loose.